Intro

I published this 15-day grief journal with the hopes of it being a help and source of comfort to anyone also going through hardship, who is struggling to find direction and hope. In it, I reflect on the book of Job and how we can best respond to, process and recover from grief.

I started documenting this journey after an attempted suicide – followed by a second attempt midway through. The grief I experienced was compounded from a whole lot of things that had occurred in the past 5+ years. The tipping point was a bad break up following my being found out on the multiple lives I was living. The last time I saw my ex gf was during a borderline personality disorder split (episode) on the 11th of Sep ‘24 where I actually blacked out. Up until today, I don’t fully know what I did or what happened – which made it all the more difficult to process healthily and move on. I only blame myself. I had my family come alongside me as well as my best friend Rebekah (who I also royally screwed over) who were positive pillars of strength.

This journal really is about recording the process of re-experiencing the beauty of Jesus and life with Him, and removing the delusion of control from my hands.